What Are You Feeling?

Feelings can be a challenge. How might you ask? Feelings can be a challenge to not only describe at times but sometimes more important to express. Unexpressed feelings can just end us as emotions that are stuck with nowhere to go. Over time those emotions can build up and may even come out in unexpected ways.
 
Did you grow up with feelings being expressed? For most of us, I would say probably not. Expressed emotions tend to make people uncomfortable. Like they did something wrong or something that they want to fix but can’t. Even at events, such as funerals, where are emotions are more acceptable, you may still have trouble with others getting to witness you cry.
 
The first funeral that I went to was for my maternal grandfather when I was 17. I remember that funeral for many reasons, one of which being the Ice Storm of ’98, but the other was one that stuck with me for any funeral that I went to in years to come. My grandmother had lost her husband of 57 years and I never saw her cry. The word stoic has always come to mind. Now come to find out, it seems to be a trait amongst the women in that family. Feelings had a place and in public wasn’t one of them.  I don’t have any idea what she felt behind closed doors, again those types of feelings weren’t meant to be revealed.
 
In this period of time that we're in, right now, our feelings are coming to the surface. Things that you might never have known about are being revealed. They’re being seen in a different light.  There may have been long-standing issues that you’ve been working on and another piece of the puzzle will fall into place.  As you move through this experience, remember one thing. Allow your emotions to come out, even if you’d prefer, they stay hidden.  A little trick that I’ve used is to watch tearjerker movies and television shows to allow myself to cry.  I may be crying over something in my own life, but there’s something freeing in the act of allowing it to come out through watching a piece of fiction. 
 
The other reminder is if you have the opportunity this holiday season, tell someone that you love them. It can seem like life will last forever, but that’s not always the case.  You never know where life will take you and it can take people to places where we can’t follow.  It’s important to state how you feel when you have the opportunity.  You don’t want to look back years from now and wish that you would have said something.  You may not always get an I love you in return, but at least those feelings aren’t hidden inside.  Feel any feelings that are rising on the surface right now. It’s an important phase in your growth as a person.
 
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What’s Rising to the Surface?

What emotions have been coming to the surface for you? Are you angry or sad or don’t know quite what to think?  The same thing keeps happening. It’s eclipse season and anything is possible.
 
The nodal axis is the process of switching from Gemini – Sagittarius to Taurus - Scorpio, from mutable to fixed. If you know your birth time, it’s a perfect time to see where Taurus and Scorpio lie in your chart.  What might be coming up for you? I’m a Gemini Rising, so Scorpio is in my 6th house (the house of daily life and health) and Taurus is in my 12th house (the house of hidden things).  The houses contain more than just this, but for simplicity purposes, we will keep it basic. Before the eclipses even start, you can start to see things shifting. My life is shifting from a focus on me (1st house) and my relationships (7th house) to what’s hidden (12th house) and my daily life (6th house). 
 
There are things from my past that I have kept hidden or didn’t know about that are starting to come up.  What has been keeping me blocked from moving forward? Where do I want to go and what is stopping me? My fears have always played the biggest role in stopping me. From the time I was a child, the dark and mysterious (Scorpio Sun) have fascinated me but stepping outside of my comfort zone and putting my trust in other people has held me back. There were a number of people that let me down and unfortunately for myself, I paid more attention to what they said to me than the people who showed me that they loved me and cared about me. For much of my life, I chose fear over love. I was too afraid to put myself out there and go for what I really wanted. In the last few years, I’ve begun to unravel that thread.  I started doing something with my life that I love. Not listening as much to what other people think about what I do, but there’s still more.  I’m having to allow people to get to know the dark and mysterious me.  I have to let people in and get to know me.
 
Like anything, this isn’t a journey that happens overnight.  It’s a process.  None of us are perfect. Not you and not me. There’s something that we’re all working on.  The question is, are you doing the work or are you allowing your past to control you? My past controlled me for a long time. More time than I would like to admit, but little by little, the past can be let go of. The emotions can be released. One day you can think about the past without breaking down into tears. You can appreciate the moments that make up a part of who you are. There may still be a sense that you wish you had realized it earlier, but it’s ok.  You can change today.
 
What is rising to the surface for you? Let me know. Do you want to know more, click here to book a discovery session or an appointment.