Denial. We’ve all had a case of denial, I can guarantee there is something in your life that you haven’t wanted to see, hear or admit to. I’ve certainly been there.
In my life there have been things that I couldn’t see or didn’t want to see. Things that I didn’t want to hear. We know when our life isn’t going the way we wanted or expected it to, but denial can also be a way of making it through the day.
When I was about to turn 30, I knew my life wasn’t as I wanted it to be. The things that I dreamed of hadn’t happened yet. The reality was that it wasn’t someone else’s fault. It was mine. I wanted to blame someone else, but there wasn’t anyone else responsible for my choices. I wanted someone else to come and save me, but I didn’t even want to save myself. I didn’t want that to be the truth. I wanted the truth to be that the timing was off or people couldn’t see who I truly was. The truth was that I didn’t allow them to see me. I didn’t let people close enough to see through the mask that I was wearing. There are reasons why, but my past was impacting my present and my future. I had to be willing to see the truth. That was step 1. Step 2 was more complicated, I had to look at it, examine it, and see it for what it truly was. A clue. That clue would lead me to change, but I had to be willing to act and do something different. Is it easy? No! But it is worth it when you can see how your life has shifted.
I’m still a work in progress. That’s part of life. The challenges don’t stop because we want them to, but we can learn to adjust and face them head on. We can examine them and let them go.